So, I'm sitting in the library at Mississippi State, attempting to study and I began to think about some things. Just being completely honest, lately I've noticed that I've had no desire to serve God. I haven't wanted to read my Bible, I've become negative about the idea of 'organized religion', and I've thought more about myself and the things that I want to accomplish than anything God might want. And the worse part is that I was having to 'fake it', which I hate more than anything. Stuck in a rut, bogged down with life, no fire, no passion, just a sucky place to be.
I had noticed this 'drift' for a while and I began praying that God would give me the ability to love Him more, that He would take me out of the rut, and restore the joy of His salvation to me. What I got back was...silence. I started wondering if maybe God had had enough. That I had finally pushed Him to the point of no return, I had reached my sin limit, and God was done with me.
It's a very depressing thought.
Like I said at the beginning, I'm in the library. I chose to sit at one of the back desks, where no one was around and I can see out the windows. It was raining a little while ago and I just stopped studying and started watching the rain...(typical me). I started thinking about all these books in this library. At MSU, the library has several huge rooms packed full with books. All this information, all this knowledge...and it all means nothing. What good is it to me if I know everything in all these books? I could impress people with all my 'wisdom' but when I die, what does that get me?...absolutely nothing. I mean there are books in here about men who have dedicated their whole lives to studying barnacles...seriously. How ridiculous is it to dedicate your life to something so meaningless?
Then I realized,
I had been doing the same thing. I've been dedicating my life to me, something so meaningless.
Then the simple thought came to my mind...Jesus. Jesus, Jesus, Jesus...the one and only thing worth anything. The only thing that outlasts death. The only thing in which anyone can find meaning.
Then outside, the rain stopped. The clouds parted, and the sun shone through. Now I'm not so selfish as to believe that God stopped the rain for me. I just think He put me in the right place at the right time. It was what I needed. It just reminded me that God still loves me, that He's not done with me, and it has sparked a renewing in me. I'm ready again, to serve God wholeheartedly and get out of this rut that I've dug myself into. He is my meaning, my purpose...
...my renewing.
Thursday, June 11, 2009
Saturday, April 4, 2009
Randomness
I am sitting at work, bored out of mind, so I thought I would do a little bloggage. I just want to talk about a few random things in this blog so hang on...
TWITTER
Twitter is probably the single greatest social networking tool ever created. I am considering committing facebook suicide and going to twitter exclusively. Everyone should try it. If you sign up for twitter, follow some cool people (like me!), and check it pretty often, I guarantee you will be addicted. Just try it!!! (Ashley McGee)
THE OFFICE
Oh my gosh...this is probably the funniest show I have ever watched. I love it! If I could quit school and my job and work at Dunder Mifflin Scranton, I'm 99% positive that I would. I'm going to buy all the seasons, so if anyone would like to have an Office party, let me know. I wanted to think up a clever "that's what she said" joke, but they were all just a little too racy. Maybe I'll do better next time (That's what she said!!) (By the way, I never learned how to use commas correctly so I'm pretty sure that I use them inappropriately in most cases,).
SHARPIE PENS
Best pen ever...hands down. I would like to thank Melissa Boyd for pointing these pens out to me. They dry really fast, they don't bleed through paper, and they come in a variety of colors (actually, I think they only come in black and blue, but those are really the only colors anybody needs, right?). The only complaint that I have with them is that they don't work on those papers where you have a white paper and a yellow paper behind it. (I have no idea what that kind of paper is called, but its like when you sign a receipt and you keep the white copy and the restaurant or gas stations keeps the yellow one. Still confused? Yeah, I think I confused myself a little) They're not that expensive so go out and get yourself a Sharpie pen today!
FAMILY LIFE
My mom (Samatha) and little sister (Anna) went to see "Cats" at Bancorpsouth Center Tuesday night. They were not impressed. I thought it would have been good, since it was on Broadway for a really long time but apparently I was wrong. My dad (Jeffrey) is writing a book right now. I read the first four chapters the other day and I was actually impressed. My dad may turn out to be an author, that would be pretty cool.
WD-40
If you haven't used WD-40 in a while, you tend to forget how amazing it is. It is like miracle in a can. I used it on my really loud grinding door the other day and I thought 'There is no way this stuff is going to fix this'...I was wrong. Worked like a freakin charm. I just checked out the WD-40 website and its really cool. I think I may join the WD-40 fanclub. Check it out at http://www.wd40.com/. (Cool Fact: WD-40 stands for 'Water Displacement-40th Attempt'...nice)
I guess I need to go do something now. The hospital doesn't pay me to blog.
Peace!!
Twitter is probably the single greatest social networking tool ever created. I am considering committing facebook suicide and going to twitter exclusively. Everyone should try it. If you sign up for twitter, follow some cool people (like me!), and check it pretty often, I guarantee you will be addicted. Just try it!!! (Ashley McGee)
THE OFFICE
Oh my gosh...this is probably the funniest show I have ever watched. I love it! If I could quit school and my job and work at Dunder Mifflin Scranton, I'm 99% positive that I would. I'm going to buy all the seasons, so if anyone would like to have an Office party, let me know. I wanted to think up a clever "that's what she said" joke, but they were all just a little too racy. Maybe I'll do better next time (That's what she said!!) (By the way, I never learned how to use commas correctly so I'm pretty sure that I use them inappropriately in most cases,).
SHARPIE PENS
Best pen ever...hands down. I would like to thank Melissa Boyd for pointing these pens out to me. They dry really fast, they don't bleed through paper, and they come in a variety of colors (actually, I think they only come in black and blue, but those are really the only colors anybody needs, right?). The only complaint that I have with them is that they don't work on those papers where you have a white paper and a yellow paper behind it. (I have no idea what that kind of paper is called, but its like when you sign a receipt and you keep the white copy and the restaurant or gas stations keeps the yellow one. Still confused? Yeah, I think I confused myself a little) They're not that expensive so go out and get yourself a Sharpie pen today!
FAMILY LIFE
My mom (Samatha) and little sister (Anna) went to see "Cats" at Bancorpsouth Center Tuesday night. They were not impressed. I thought it would have been good, since it was on Broadway for a really long time but apparently I was wrong. My dad (Jeffrey) is writing a book right now. I read the first four chapters the other day and I was actually impressed. My dad may turn out to be an author, that would be pretty cool.
WD-40
If you haven't used WD-40 in a while, you tend to forget how amazing it is. It is like miracle in a can. I used it on my really loud grinding door the other day and I thought 'There is no way this stuff is going to fix this'...I was wrong. Worked like a freakin charm. I just checked out the WD-40 website and its really cool. I think I may join the WD-40 fanclub. Check it out at http://www.wd40.com/. (Cool Fact: WD-40 stands for 'Water Displacement-40th Attempt'...nice)
I guess I need to go do something now. The hospital doesn't pay me to blog.
Peace!!
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
I'm Blogging!
Wow! So this is what it feels like to have a blog. I must say it is everything I imagined it would be...and more! Well, I guess I'll use this first "post" to let all you folks out there, who find me important enough to read about, know a little something about me. My name is Jacob Kyle Waldo. I was born January 26, 1988. For those of you who can't add, that makes me 21 years old (Partay! (just kiddin')). I am currently a super sophamore at Itawamba Community College pursuing a degree in...well right now its Biology, but it changes every now and then. I'm going to Mississippi State next year and its bittersweet. I am going to miss ole ICC, especially the Baptist Student Union (BSU). I have one sister, Anna (14) and one brother, John Bryan (3).
(I had to start a new paragraph for this) Now, for the most important thing about me. I love, I mean really love, Jesus Christ. I have surrendered my life to following Him, even if that means suffering or dying. Actually, especially if that means suffering or dying. I hope that doesn't come across as morbid, it's just that the Bible says in Phillipians 3:8-11
"Indeed, I count everything as loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have suffered the loss of all things and count them as rubbish, in order that I may gain Christ and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which comes through faith in Christ, the righteousness from God that depends on faith-- that I may know him and the power of his resurrection, and may share his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, that by any means possible I may attain the resurrection from the dead."
What Paul is saying here is that he gave up everything, good and bad, and counted it as rubbish (the more accurate translation for "rubbish, "skubala" in the Greek, is the "s" word, look it up if you don't believe me) so that he could gain Christ and the righteousness that comes through faith in Him. But Paul also says that he gave up everything so that he could "know him and the power of his resurrection, and may share his sufferings, becoming like him in his death". I hope you understand what this means. Paul is saying, "I gave up everything I had, everything I loved and thought I couldn't live without and counted it as sh*t, so that I could know Jesus and hopefully share His sufferings, and if I'm lucky, die an agonizing death on a cross just like He did, and then share in His resurrection."
You know, so many of us find it hard to give up simple things for Jesus; cursing, shows on t.v. we shouldn't watch, music we shouldn't listen to, jokes we shouldn't tell, gossip, etc., etc., etc.
I think its time for us to start dying with Christ daily to our sins.
I just pray that God would give me a heart like Paul's because I want to love Jesus that much.
So, wow, I think I went a little off the deepend with this. My bad. Well, until next time.
(I had to start a new paragraph for this) Now, for the most important thing about me. I love, I mean really love, Jesus Christ. I have surrendered my life to following Him, even if that means suffering or dying. Actually, especially if that means suffering or dying. I hope that doesn't come across as morbid, it's just that the Bible says in Phillipians 3:8-11
"Indeed, I count everything as loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have suffered the loss of all things and count them as rubbish, in order that I may gain Christ and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which comes through faith in Christ, the righteousness from God that depends on faith-- that I may know him and the power of his resurrection, and may share his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, that by any means possible I may attain the resurrection from the dead."
What Paul is saying here is that he gave up everything, good and bad, and counted it as rubbish (the more accurate translation for "rubbish, "skubala" in the Greek, is the "s" word, look it up if you don't believe me) so that he could gain Christ and the righteousness that comes through faith in Him. But Paul also says that he gave up everything so that he could "know him and the power of his resurrection, and may share his sufferings, becoming like him in his death". I hope you understand what this means. Paul is saying, "I gave up everything I had, everything I loved and thought I couldn't live without and counted it as sh*t, so that I could know Jesus and hopefully share His sufferings, and if I'm lucky, die an agonizing death on a cross just like He did, and then share in His resurrection."
You know, so many of us find it hard to give up simple things for Jesus; cursing, shows on t.v. we shouldn't watch, music we shouldn't listen to, jokes we shouldn't tell, gossip, etc., etc., etc.
I think its time for us to start dying with Christ daily to our sins.
I just pray that God would give me a heart like Paul's because I want to love Jesus that much.
So, wow, I think I went a little off the deepend with this. My bad. Well, until next time.
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